❅ In my winter wonderland ❅
Like you said there seems to be no reason, but actually there were a lot. So my parents told me that I should think about my future and they were telling me to get better in school. I was anxious about my future and I started feeling unwell. I didn’t know what it was and then my grades didn’t get better. I started crying a lot. I remember that one night I sat in my bed crying for hours, I felt like I’m going crazy. And then I just couldn’t eat anything at all I wasn’t even hungry I just felt sick. And then I got into that circle where I hated myself and I felt fat and ugly. I stopped eating I mean I just ate an apple in three days. I felt weak and got even more depressed and I couldn’t sleep because I was so hungry but I didn’t care. But it slowly got better and today I’m happy. I finished school, I know what I wanna do, and my family stands behind me. And I’m glad that I helped you a little bit, also with sharing my story :) <3
I just published it. sorry for taking so long :)
So I know how hard it is to stuck to a normal diet. Even today I have issues with some foods but I’m getting better. So please talk to someone before it gets even worse. And also cutting is no solution you just have the scars your whole life (like I do). And again don’t think that you don’t have the right to feel sad, because there is always a reason. I think you should ask yourself why am I sad and then find the problem and try to fix it. And if you can’t handle it on your own then go talk to somebody. I didn’t do it and one day my mum came to me and asked me if I’m anorexic and I felt even more like shit. So keeping all to yourself is never a good idea. One thing I can tell you even if you think that it never gets better, I’ll promise you it will. Just hold on and stay strong. I really hope that I that helped you a little bit with this and don’t forget I’m here for you if you need someone to talk to just message me :).
No anon-chan I don’t mind a long ask :). Ok first of all you are not an attention seeker! And I think I know what you are going through, because I had the same problems. I felt like I’m not good enough and I felt neither sad nor happy I absolutely felt nothing. And I cut myself as well to feel at least something. Well I didn’t puked, but I was anorexic. I starved myself for days and days and even then I felt more disgust. I thought that I can’t tell anyone, because I thought they think I’m an attention seeker. But this is not true everything we are doing is for a reason and I think you should talk to somebody about your problems. (part 1)
aww omg anon-chan :( why are you so sad? Maybe I’ll understand you :)